I’ve been busy getting my classroom ready for the first day of school. My room is organized and I've experienced two days with students so far. I’ve done a bit of tweaking, but my organizational plan is functioning well.
Mentally, I am in a fog. They say the first year of teaching is always the hardest. I know I will get my bearings, but for now, I am a bit overwhelmed with everything. There is just so much information to process. The work load is unbelievable. A sweet friend brought us dinner on my first day teaching. I hope she got a lot of brownie points with God for doing so.
I haven’t wanted to talk to anyone now that it is the weekend. My parts that need quiet, alone time are out in force today. I guess they deserve to have peacefulness after two days of 225+ students, crowds, being on all the time, and bells.
I haven’t gone back to see my childhood home. I called the lady back, but she wasn’t home, and she hasn’t returned my call. Now that I’ve dared ask if I can go inside, I really don’t have the desire to do so. Now that I’ve faced that fear it has lost its power over me. Fears are like that – most of them anyway.
Story Time – Part Two
7 years ago
5 comments:
I'm sure you'll do very well teaching.
I don't think it really matters if you go in the house or not. You faced the thing that scared you- something they tell anxiety sufferers to do- and thus you have triumphed no matter what.
"I haven't wanted to talk to anyone now that it is the weekend." Boy do I know what you mean! Student teaching has been hard, good, but just hard. I have so much to do and learn in such a short period of time. I have no time for myself, let alone my splits. I have found that when I don't have the time for myself and them, I lose energy quicker and I have more and more problems focusing and just plain functioning. As a result, the weekends have been my time to have all the alone time and quiet time I can possibly get! I spent all of today by myself and I am finally starting to feel more normal.
I hope things start to smooth out for you; I know you will be great!
Thanks for sharing,
Bee
Congratulations on surviving the first two days with students! I cried every single day the first few of months my first year, and then every Sunday evening and Monday morning my entire first year! But here I am in year nine, so it does get better.
I totally believe that about the fears. The being afraid part of something turns out to be worse than it actually happening.
Have a GREAT well deserved weekend!
Sunshine, I just wrote a whole comment but think I lost it. Hang in there. Don't let feeling overwhelmed by all that is new (and by your own high standards to do all well)keep you from crediting yourself for your gains, your growth, and your healing. And look at how much you are giving!!! You're making the world a better place. I don't even know you, but have followed your story and am SO PROUD of you! Again, hang tight ... and be kind to yourself.
Hi there!
How is everyone? You and all the others?
I know this is a busy stressful time for
the group of you. I've just missed hearing
your voices. :) HUGS
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