My mom recently told me that my husband was my soulmate, and my response to her statement troubled me.
He is a good husband, and I love him, but soul mate? I'm not sure if it is possible for someone with DID to have a soulmate. He doesn't like to talk about my alters or my weirdness, so how can we be soulmates? A few of my alters don't even like him, so of course he can't be a soulmate.
I though back on relationships I've had, and no, I don't think I ever found a soulmate. I've had good friends, people I love, who are closer to soulmates than my own husband. Past boyfriends could not be all things to all alters, so I didn't leave a soulmate behind.
With DID, the system is about survival. My system does well with my husband - he is liked by most of the system. He is safe and makes us feel secure. He is a good father and provider. He is not my soulmate, but I don't think that is possible in my situation. How does a system with thirteen alters find one person who is everything to all of them? I don't see it happening. Sometimes (often), I think it was very unfair of me to marry and bring him into this chaos.
Fellow DIDers, do you have a soulmate?
