For the most part, I am okay with my DID, but today I need to vent about it. Religion is another hard thing. My host is LDS, but my alters each have different stances on theology – from Catholicism to Atheism. When Saturday night comes around, there is a lot of internal arguing going on about going to church the next day. Several of my alters have no interest in Church – of any kind. If they come out when I am at church, they promptly go to sleep and take me along with them – even when I’ve had enough sleep and am not tired. It is embarrassing.
The church thing I’ve dealt with for years, but the test worries me. I will be at school tomorrow for an hour or two; I hope that if I study right when I get home tomorrow that the alter who needs to be out will be out. I also hope that the right alter will be there for the test. Sometimes DID is not a superpower in any way – it is just a hindrance that causes worry and anxiety.
How do others of you with DID cope with issues like this?
5 comments:
I really related to your post a lot. I struggle really bad when it comes to church issues. It seems that some pretty nasty junk was tied in to church type settings for me.
I also get it when you talk about your not always the one taking the tests. I've been there before, particuraly with math.
I think with the church issues, I just have to take one step at a time, and try to process it. Its really hard. I'm not so sure about what to do for the test. Maybe you could just ask whoever is good at the test to come forward.
Healing said:
Maybe you could just ask whoever is good at the test to come forward.
Is that possible? I've been wondering that very thing this past week. I'm not diagnosed and have very little info about all of this but every time my handwriting changes or an extreme mood change shows itself I wonder. Am I?
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I have no alters that I know of, but I'll pray for you to pass the test!!! I was thinking of you yesterday, almost emailed you ... son issues. Hope all is well ....
hope your test went well.
I would be interested in hearing more about your personal exploration of spirituality and how that has affected you throughout your life.
This is Maeve by the way, the girl with the DID ex-boyfriend, who emailed you yesterday. Now that I have figured out how to use this comment system, I will be commenting more.
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