Usually when I am at school, I am in teacher mode and don't even think about my life outside of school, but one of my children has recently had some health problems, so I had to go to school co-conscious with the mother. I spent my lunch and prep on the phone with doctors, and when my next class came in, I couldn't switch back to Trina. It was a good thing that she had left detailed notes on the board for me to follow. I felt like a bad sub. One of my students kept looking at me like she was thinking, "Who are you, and what have you done with our teacher."
Is that how it is for people without DID when they have a crisis? Can you only think of that one thing, or are you able to still function and remember all your other duties? It is times like this that being a single would be helpful - unless singles also can't remember stuff when a crisis comes.
Luckily my child will be fine (hopefully) and the medication will work.
Story Time – Part Two
7 years ago
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When I have a crisis like that and I can't switch, it is exactly like that for me. I can only think of that one thing and it's almost impossible for me to function and remember my other responsibilities. There are rare times when I'm co-conscious or able to think quickly on my feet and "make it up as I go" but most of the time, I feel like a complete idiot. My students are very good with me though because I don't have just one alter who does all of the teaching (about 10 of them like to share the teaching responsibility) so it is normal for me to act a little differently. We try to keep it as consistent as possible of course, but still have our different fun personalities at times when appropriate and our students love that.
My best friend is also a teacher and she works at the same school as me - she is aware of my DID and we often talk about our similarities and differences with life in general but especially with teaching. This topic came up a few days ago and she said that when a crisis comes up for her, it is also difficult to remember her responsibilities. She can usually only think of one thing at a time and usually only if it is written down or verbally told to her.
Thank you so much for taking the time to follow my blog! I can't say I fully understand your DID, but I do know mental illness. I had 3 brother's and a dad who suffered with paranoid schizophrenia (thank god for spell check)the way society treats mental illness is horrific, unless YOUR family has experienced it first hand actually "IN" your family they truly have no idea how it affects everyone. Too often DR./s do not treat mental patients as human beings, and feel they are not "worthy" of their time. My dad and two of my brother's have died. ALL of them were EXTREMELY intelligent, (far beyond my capabilities) and that is part of the farce with mental illness, a diagnoses of mental illness does not mean STUPID! Keep hanging in there! Love Penny Scrap-aholic@blogspot.com
I have to say for me, yes when I am anxious yes my mind goes blank and I have to force myself to focus.
But if someone else is in crisis, then I can focus and do what is needed.
Just for the record I don't have DID. But I do get anxious when I am driving someplace new or unfamiliar. I think I am going to get lost. Funny thing is my city isn't all that big, and I don't think anyone can get lost in it.
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