If at some point I get Alzheimer’s, senility, or dementia as I age, how will it manifest?
Will those close to me blame my forgetfulness on DID? Will I blame my forgetfulness on DID?
If my mind regresses, will the littles be out all the time? Will they remember what happened to us, or will they be in a state of denial? If they remember everything, I really don’t want to be there. I remember enough to know it was bad. I don’t need to know everything.
If I get dementia, will I still have DID, or will I just no longer care that I have DID? Will I leave little piles of diced cheddar cheese all over the house like my sweet elderly neighbor use to? I wonder why she did that. Maybe she had little mice friends. All I know is that she wouldn’t let me clean it up when I would go over to help her. She would replace the diced cheese piles on a regular basis, so they never got too nasty. It was kind of sweet to think of little borrowers finding food treasure throughout her house – or maybe that was my littles way of thinking at the time. I thought it was rather charming, so when I get older if I get dementia, please don’t move my cheese.
Has any research been done on this issue? I think I better find out. My grandfather struggled with senility. One time when I hugged him, he looked so scared. He didn't have any idea who I was. I felt so bad because I had been so close to him. I was sad that he was locked in his mind and unable to process who I was. I really hope that someday soon (although I know it won’t be) doctors will understand the human brain enough to prevent or cure Alzheimer’s, senility, and dementia. Until then, this will remain worry number 1,201.
4 comments:
My grandmother had dementia and it was rough.
I to pray for a cure for these diseases!
I too would love for these type diseases to be figured out and helped. It's very hard watching loved ones go through it. :(
I think I'd like to sit down and chat with you. I can relate to some of what you say personally and some of it because my mother had what was then called Paranoid Schizophrenia. Don't know what they are calling that these days. What I do know is that my own abuse history resulted in repressed memory and that it's been WORK to heal from that. I also always have the realization that more could come out at any time. Blessings to you.
I don't know anything about dementia related to DID or by itself except that it is bad, bad, bad. But I do know this - when I worry too much, my brother tells me this, "If you have the thought, 'what if', push it out of your mind. It's not worth the worry getting caught up in 'what if'." I think what he told me was to change it into the thought, "I'm feeling anxious right now." Then you can concentrate on the actual problem that is happening (anxiety), rather than the problem that may never happen (dementia). Hopefully this will just remain a "what if" for you and you will never have to know how it would be.
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