I have officially been hired to teach school this fall. This is a good thing, yet I worry about how this job will affect my system. I had hoped to find a part time teaching job because the alter that is in charge of being a teacher has a tendency to take over the system when she is out for long periods of time. I thought that a part time position would give her the time she needed and still allow the rest of my system time to shine. Because this is a full time position and my first year teaching this curriculum, I will need to spend many hours outside of the classroom developing lesson plans, which means that Trina will need to be out – a lot.
I hope when my 3D children and family call me, they will be understanding towards me and not take it personally if they reach Trina instead of me. When she is lesson planning she prefers not to be disturbed and can be a bit abrupt. I hope that when I run into people from school when Trina is not out that I will somehow remember who they are. This has been a problem in the past. And finally, I hope that when Trina is out, I will recognize people who are important to me.
I know that these are probably not the “normal” worries that most first year teachers have, but this is my normal. I know Trina is a capable teacher – above average. She loves the children she teaches and loves her content area. She is excited to be in the classroom helping students gain a love for knowledge. She has good classroom management skills, and her procedures are firmly in place. Although we will work harder than we ever have before, this will be a good year - if we can somehow figure out how to balance our system.
It feels strange posting about a job. Although most of you don't know who I am, I worry that people will think, 'I hope my kid isn't in her class.' I understand the stigma of mental illness, but I reassure you that my students will be safe, loved, and well taught. Trina is really good at what she does.
Story Time – Part Two
7 years ago


12 comments:
I am SO glad you wrote about this! I will start my student teaching in the fall and I have all the same worries you mentioned in this post. I feel a little better knowing I'm not the only one who has these worries. I know my splits will be amazing and touch so many lives, but I still have that fear in the back of my mind that I won't be able to be out as much. Good luck to you and again, thank you so much for posting about this!
-Bee
You have got to be kidding ... never would it have occurred to me to thing that. More like, "Can I PLEASE send my child to you?!!?" (and that from a twenty year in conflicted homeschooler) ... three cheers for you!
Good luck! I think that your whole system will make it work. It's important enough to you that everyone of the alters will understand.
I have a feeling (based on no knowledge, just my gut) that you will do very well and wish you the best in your new endeavor. You once said that all your alters were there to try and smooth the way for you. I don't know if you can communicate with Trina but, if you can, perhaps you could let her know your fears of running into people you should know from school. Maybe she could let you and the other alters know who they are. After all it would be to her advantage too.
Mom I know you will do amazing. You are a wonderful teacher! I wish I could send all my kids to you in the future. And maybe I will be able to. I love you Mom. I know you will do great.
Even knowing about the alters....
And knowing even more about YOU.....
I would happily send my children,
if I had children, to be taught by you!
I wish you had been one of MY
teachers. You would have loved me
unconditionally. I know that. And
your children, in class, will know that too.
hugs, **
congrats on the job.
Things have a way of working themselves out.
Boy I want an apple right now.
Mom, you will be a wonderful teacher. You are such an organized woman and are so loving towards your students. As mentioned by my sweet sibling above, I too would love to have my children in your classroom!
Hugs.
You know, I know I've been to your blog before, but I must have come in on a cooking post. I had the idea from your profile on the sidebar that you had been through horrible experiences, but I think when I originally saw your blog sometime this past school year, I had no idea that there was so much more here.
I'm sort of overwhelmed in a way that would make it difficult for me to comment individually on all of your posts that I'd like to. I can't imagine how difficult it must be to actually live them.
Best of luck with your teaching job. I imagine that some of your concerns ARE felt by beginning (and seasoned) teachers, maybe just less intensely or with less complications. I know I have a very hard time if I see parents of my school children out of context. I don't have to worry about an alter. I just worry that they'll think I'm stupid all on my own.
We just found your blog and what a wonderful post and comments! We actually taught for several years but the timing wasn't right and we wound up leaving it for other, less-public pursuits. All the best to (all of) you!
Jill,
I love your comment about worrying that people will think you are stupid all on your own. I laughed when I read it. It is reassuring to me when I see other people do the things that are so common in my world. Thank you for sharing that.
Sunshine
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