I Need to Access Information in Another Alter

I need to take a test for re-licensure next week. I studied somewhat for this test while school was in session, and the alter who does school understood what I studied. But now school is out, and today when I tried to study, I didn’t understand anything I read. I know that someone inside knows this stuff. It is times like this that I really hate having DID. This test is expensive, and I need to pass it.

For the most part, I am okay with my DID, but today I need to vent about it. Religion is another hard thing. My host is LDS, but my alters each have different stances on theology – from Catholicism to Atheism. When Saturday night comes around, there is a lot of internal arguing going on about going to church the next day. Several of my alters have no interest in Church – of any kind. If they come out when I am at church, they promptly go to sleep and take me along with them – even when I’ve had enough sleep and am not tired. It is embarrassing.

The church thing I’ve dealt with for years, but the test worries me. I will be at school tomorrow for an hour or two; I hope that if I study right when I get home tomorrow that the alter who needs to be out will be out. I also hope that the right alter will be there for the test. Sometimes DID is not a superpower in any way – it is just a hindrance that causes worry and anxiety.

How do others of you with DID cope with issues like this?